Feeling like i need a break?

so i know that i suffer from depression and I am on antidepressants but...i guess im just in a real tough space right now. I do have some great things going on in my life such as: graduating from college next month, have a full-time job, have a few close friends, my grandparents are beyond amazing, and i'm in a relationship with a man that has been through hell and back with me..the thing is... last month i watched my dad sentenced to 20 yrs in prison for abuse of me, my schizophrenic mother leaves the state and acts as if I don't exist (mind you she never been in my life until I turned 20) my boyfriend hasn't been speaking to me or wanting me to touch him. I basically want to crawl under a rock. I think im beyond the thoughts of suicide right now but i still don't want to do nothing. I used to be so tenacious and a go getter but lately I have been in the house, not looking a jobs (I'm used to working two jobs-helps with extra bills and allows me to buy things i never had as a kid) waiting to the last minute to write my papers for school too. I think people that are close to me are about through with my sad times..especially my live in boyfriend. to tell the truth, im bout tired of it too. I am so screwed up. Im the product of a mentally ill mother, a sexual predator father.i try not to throw a pity party for myself but man... i don't know about anything anymore!